For the past 10 days, I've been in pain -- a lot of pain. What I thought was just a little twinge/tweak in my left hamstring has grown into a full-blown problem. Based on my symptoms (sharp pain that radiates from my glutes all the way down to my toes on my left side and numbness on the outer edge of my left foot), I'm working under the assumption that I have piriformis syndrome. My piriformis is mad at me and is voicing its opinion loud and clear. I've been experimenting with a variety of at-home treatments -- heat, stretches, essential oils, rest, hanging around on our new inversion table -- and the pain seems to be dissipating. But, at the end of the day, it comes back with a vengeance. Thankfully, I've found a couple of sleeping positions that don't aggravate the muscle too much, so although my sleep hasn't been stellar, I'm getting some.
I can't stand being injured. As a long-time athlete and avid exerciser, it pains me (pun totally intended here) being sidelined with any sort of injury or pain. And the interesting thing about my current state is that sitting down is the worst thing I can do. Sitting for 20 minutes or so dulls the pain -- until you get back up again. So, I'm feeling a little at a loss. I have been getting in my steps -- believe it or not, walking is better than sitting --spending some time at the barre (The ORIGINAL Technique has really helped with stretching out my left side), doing some upper body workouts and trying to get some full-body/lower body work done without overdoing it. And, I'm relying on low-impact workouts from Moms Into Fitness and P.Volve to see me through this latest bout of pain.
Part of me wonders what I did to cause the-pain-that-just-won't-go-away. Was I overdoing it with my workouts again? Did I injure myself? Or, is my body trying to tell me to slow down? I really do struggle with finding the right balance between what my body truly needs and whatever challenge my brain is pushing me toward. And with each passing year -- it's now been almost five years since I found out about my autoimmune conditions -- the struggle to find that harmonious relationship between my former marathoner-in-training-self and my current proceed-with-caution-self doesn't get much easier. It's hard to admit that my body is ready to slow down -- really slow down -- but, I'm not. And then I find myself hobbling around the house with a heating pad strapped to my left side reminding myself this is what happens when I let my ego call the shots.
While I wait for what I hope will be a quick and painless end to my piriformis syndrome, I've decided to put that time and energy into beefing up this blog. Over the last few months, I've been filming videos of me instructing classes in The ORIGINAL Lotte Berk Technique and Rebound & Releve and slowing dripping them into The Barre Library's Video Library. Now, I'd like to add some meaningful content to the written portion of this site. I have a long laundry list of topics that I'd like to write about, but am curious as to the types of articles that you'd like to see? Currently, I'd like to explore and write:
*Some pieces on The ORIGINAL Lotte Berk Technique (history, significance to the barre industry, its innovative and effective moves)
* The delicate relationship between exercise and autoimmune disease
*Low-impact, yet effective, barre moves that will leave you feeling invigorated and not depleted
So, as all good writers know, you need to identify your audience and write about topics that they will find engaging. That said, any feedback that you can provide as to the types of information you'd like to learn, topics you'd find interesting, etc. would help me craft a blog that is more about what you want to hear rather than what I think you want to hear. Please comment below with your Barre Library Blog Wish Lists and I'll get to work fulfilling them while I continue to work on finding my own balance.
See you at the barre!